Monday, September 17, 2012

September 17, 2012

September 17, 2012


(All photos are mine unless noted. You can bring the pictures up in full screen by double clicking on any image. Click on a border to return.)

    This week I am offering "Light" the product of God's love for everything that grows openly, unconstrained, enabling growth with fullness and delight. Below the pictures I put in a letter I sent to a friend who, when we met and talked a few weeks ago quoted Leonard Cohen - one of the great poets and songwriters of the age. Please take some time to read the letter and the poetry that follows below the first two photos so the light offered by others can enter.



"There's a crack, a crack in everything,
that's how the light gets in."

                         Leonard Cohen


Look for the Light, there's always an opening


When the Light enters and we face and embrace it,
wondrous flowers will be offered in gratitude
for our turning to the direction where God can be seen

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- A recent letter to a friend -

Dear  (my friend) ________ ,

      I was thinking about the Cohen quote, "There's a crack, a crack in everything – that's how the light gets in." My thoughts are that to see this "Light' one must get inside everything – or at least make a start and get inside one thing, open the heart's eyes, and let the Light of God's Spirit infuse one's being at God's speed, not ours. Lazarus, in the total darkness of the tomb first heard the voices at the entrance, then saw the light at the stone was rolled away, but it was not the light of day he saw but the Divine Light shining through the eyes of Jesus. I believe this to be so - how often have we been illuminated by the Spirit's Radiance as it shone through the presence of another, or was carried on the wings of another's speech, or from the pages of a book, or from a piece of music that lights up our very core.
    
    To see the crack from the outside is simply an observation of a flaw. To get the Gift we go inside – everything. Yet, the paradox is that we can see the crack in another's armor and their ever present Light will come through from their interior. To see growth in someone I may be working with, an illumination of some sort, is also to see The Light. It all depends on sight, opening the eyes of the heart. So, the outside can also be the inside.
  
   Here are two poems by David Whyte;

 - THE OPENING OF EYES -

That day I saw beneath dark clouds
the passing light over the water
and I heard the voice of the world speak out,
I knew then, as I had before
life is no passing memory of what has been
nor the remaining pages in a great book
waiting to be read.
It is the opening of eyes long closed.
It is the vision of far off things
seen for the silence they hold.

It is the heart after years
of secret conversing
speaking out loud in the clear air.
It is Moses in the desert
fallen to his knees before the lit bush.
It is the man throwing away his shoes
as if to enter heaven
and finding himself astonished,
opened at last,
fallen in love with solid ground.
                                                    David Whyte



         - Loaves and Fishes -

This is not
the age of information.
This is not
the age of information.
Forget the news,
and the radio,
and the blurred screen.
This is the time
of loaves
and fishes.
People are hungry
and one good word is bread
for a thousand.

  -- David Whyte
   

 (And from myself, something of a resurrection story.)   

- Seeing The Light –   ( Bill Lagerstrom, May 24, 2011 )

Into the light, out of the cold darkness of long winter's reach,
Spring rushes in, quickly, as it does every turn of the circle.
The seasons are God's Promises coming around again –
The Teaching is made visible, death of the old brings the life of the new.

The beech trees outside our door are Spring's work in action,
Speeding to life the buds holding the brown leaves
That never left during the past months of cold, ice and snow, now fall,
As new life dislodges the long dead to the grounds grave below.

Emerging as the growth of the new leaves of Spring,
Life is nourished by the decay of what has already died.
What appeared to be lifeless, is far from total demise,
All the wisdom in still useful cells, is the food offering new growth.

God only says, "Yes."
My pleas for answers go unanswered;
What I already knew, the circle of my life,
Has for many years been visible to these eyes –
Spring to Summer, to Fall, to Winter –
And, Spring again.

Losing memory of Spring when deep into the short days of Winter,
God, realizing the nature of my disbelief, my loss of hope –
Fulfills the promises made that need not be repeated,
New Spring will arrive even if I am called Home in Winter.

Winter's last breath, as will be mine,
Is always followed by New Life,
A different Spring for a different day.
We will all know this truth eventually.


           Peace and serenity my friend, in and with The Light. 
                      
                                                 Bill 

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Though the night holds its terrors,
and fitful dreams enter everywhere -
the Light continues to find its way in,

The Always Present Sun of Hope

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And a little humor:


- Falling in love for the first time -

Peace and serenity until next week,

                    Bill Lagerstrom


Monday, September 10, 2012

September 10, 2012

September 10, 2012


(All photos are mine unless noted. You can bring the pictures up in full screen by double clicking on any image. Click on a border to return.)

   Surgery was successful and I am recovering. A hard week to be sure, and a long recovery ahead for a detached tendon which dropped of the shoulder rotator cuff - something I have gone through before for the other shoulder. Medicine is good, and God is Good having Called talented people to the work of repairing broken parts of people. 

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Be sure to see the post from Jim Lapierre's BDN blog below the poem. 
A worthwhile read

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     Mindfulness Practice - One of the best practices I have had over the last decade has been "Mindfulness".  Taking an online course with Ines Freedman of the Insight Meditation Center in California on mindfulness produced a major shift in the way I see things.  Primarily, to stop, take one, two, three breaths and then look at what is around me or in front of me brings my surroundings into clearer focus.  
   
     John Cabot Zinn in Cambridge Massachusetts brought mindfulness practice to the United States without using the "B" word, Buddhist, in a manner that allowed the practice to be picked up by therapists, hospital workers, teachers of all sorts, essentially just about everyone.  The practice which focuses on breath, emotions, and the body has the ability to bring peace and equanimity in all of life's situations.  

      Here is my teacher Ines Freedman talking on mindfulness meditation practice -     Click Here    You have to listen to this talk one track at a time after clicking on the Ines Freedman folder,

      Many of her talks as well as loads of additional talks on Buddhist practices by American teachers are available at the Insight Meditation Center website 

                         Click Here

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Summer here in Maine is ending 
soon the green of the passing season 
will become a fading memory
as we wait on the miracle of Spring to come


                              - A Fall Day -

How can one say the day is gray, rainy, and dark,
When there is Light everywhere!
Diffused, yes, softened, yes,
Still, very much visible are all of Love’s Creations.

The eyes of the head open automatically to the dim light,
The eyes of the heart can remain closed because of what
     lies behind the eyes of the head.
To enable the Jesus nature within to see in darkness,
     and in dark places,
Ah,  …… yes, release the body’s senses and the heads thinking,
     so the senses of the heart and soul can be set free.

“How?” you ask.
I do not know, there are no words –
Only my surrender to, and acceptance of Love’s actions
Within this once heavily guarded life within my breast.

                                                                Bill L.

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Here in the Bangor area and beyond we have a valuable resource in Jim LaPierre who has a Blog in the Bangor Daily News as part of their community outreach. It is called "Recovery Rocks" and besides being beautifully written, the content is truly worth reading for everyone, not just those in recovery.  Please take a look Click Here  From this page you can see all the past entries by scrolling down and clicking on "Older Entries."

   I include his entry for this week which is for me right on target for the thoughts I have had on my own creative nature.  Please take a read. (Posted with Jim's permission.)

How To Get Out of Your Own Way




   So…I have an intern. I’ve resisted having interns for a lot of years now. I’m a busy person. Busy people don’t look for protégés much but I have one. She’s brilliant – strong skills base, good knowledge of the field, excellent organization and communication skills…hell, I’d probably hire her if I had any money. Here’s the thing: She asks me how I do what I do. Here’s the problem with that: I dunno.
  
Kinda makes me sound ridiculous doesn’t it? Ask an artist how they paint. Ask a gambler how he knows what the other player’s cards are. It’s good to have technical skills and knowledge. Everything else is creative insight and expression. If you’re good it’s because what you do is an extension of who you are.

 I've been a therapist for over ten years now. They told me in grad school that I’d be seven years into this thing before I got really comfortable. I hated that. I wanted to be really, really good and I wanted to not be scared from day one. Turned out like any other job I’ve ever had. You gotta pay your dues. I struggled. I worked hard. I learned a lot from every client I served and I learned a lot about myself. It took me a long time to realize that the more secure I am in who I am, the more patient, tolerant, and kind I became to the world. This outweighs anything I happen to know about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.

   Fear makes us crave control. I pursued the illusion that if I had tons of technical knowledge, I wouldn’t be scared cuz I’d know what I was doing. This is akin to reading every book ever written about pottery but never picking up a handful of clay. What I learned in school was valuable but it wasn’t enough. People’s lives aren’t covered by text books and theoretical knowledge is of limited value. Get to know people on their terms, in their language, based on their comfort level. People want to be understood – they just fear the vulnerability it takes to share who they are.
  
    Most of us are afraid to discover who we really are. (What if deep down I’m actually an asshole?) To access our true potential is terrifying because we don’t know where the limits are. Children derive a sense of security and wellbeing from knowing what the rules and boundaries are –these are the lines they can’t cross. Those of us who raised ourselves didn’t get that sense of security and safety. For us to explore who we are and what is possible for us requires that we overcome our insecurities (reasons why we are not good enough). We have to get out of our own way in order to become something greater.

   Ira Glass said “…the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work.” He was referring to the creative process. Really connecting to people involves very little science and a whole lotta art. Artists of every type tend to be at least a little neurotic because when you’re judging what we create, you’re judging us. If you’re an accountant your spreadsheet is not who you are – it’s what you do – it’s your work. It’s important and ideally you take pride in it but it’s not who you are.

  I’m good at what I do because I’m good with who I am. I had to do a lot of work to get here and that work was as a client in therapy and in connecting to something greater than myself spiritually. My work on me will never be done. I don’t ever wanna be done – that would be like settling and saying I’m not willing to get any healthier, any happier, or attain any more joy than I have. In much the same manner – for the artist a piece is never really done you just have to stop working on it and move on to the next piece.


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An early Spring flower in Cape Breton 2011

What can grow will grow anywhere
even out of a rock



When life presents you with Steps
take them

Some humor: 


Monday, September 3, 2012

September 3, 2012

September 3, 2012


(All photos are mine unless noted. You can bring the pictures up in full screen by double clicking on any image. Click on a border to return.)

   First this week is a short video about how a few people make a difference by teaching others to give in a most unusual way.       Go to: 

          http://www.globalonenessproject.org/videos/karma_kitchen



   I go under the knife for shoulder reconstruction tomorrow, Tuesday, and this and a few additional posts will be readied for the following weeks. It amazes me that we live in a time where medicine treats this kind of work as an outpatient procedure. What is still more wonderful is that the process will be accomplished through just a few very small incisions where saws, hammers, wrenches. power tools and the like will enter and do the necessary work - all seen on monitors by the surgical team! This world is filled with remarkable people who work and succeed in environments like this.
   I asked the orthopedist if I could see their storeroom to make sure they had enough parts to keep me going for another half century. A most serious man he said that it doesn't work that way. Good. Another doctor who concentrates and is capable, well up to the job. Although, when I had some electrical issues with my heart a few years ago, a procedure called an ablation was done in a room with 10-15 million dollars of computerized gear, and a staff of 11 of more - the doctor came to the gurney I was lying on and asked, "You know the dangers of this surgery don't you .... Heart attack, stroke or death?" The first multiple choice quiz I had been given in many years. He did have a smile on his face and we both laughed. Great bedside manner which did relax me for what followed easily.
   So, This week, special people to consider in our lives. We have all met someone who, beside ourselves, is wonderfully proficient in the work they have been called to. They are worthy of celebration as we remember them, or if they are still about let us tell them of what they, by their being, have influenced us. I do however, find myself having a great deal of attraction to what may be called ordinary people, which is to say that we are all ordinary people called to different tasks to perform so the wheels of the world continue to turn. The elderly man who simply did the best he could in successfully having raised a family, entered into a long term relationship with one other, worked hard and long to simply give what was possible to those God entrusted him with. There are millions of success stories like this, maybe even into the billions. 

     Grace, Gifts from a Loving Creator abound, seen when we open our eyes and look for the extra-ordinary in the ordinary. 
     


Another view of what for me is a most familiar tree.
Opening my eyes to see all that can be seen
is a gift that only promotes gratitude in my center.

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Here in the Bangor area and beyond we have a valuable resource in Jim LaPierre who has a Blog in the Bangor Daily News as part of their community outreach. It is called "Recovery Rocks" and besides being beautifully written, the content is truly worth reading for everyone, not just those in recovery.  Please take a look Click Here  From this page you can see all the past entries by scrolling down and clicking on "Older Entries."


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A few quotes for pondering:

Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.

   We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls.

Love begins at home, and it is not how much we do... but how much love we put in that action.

Mother Teresa of Calcutta

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Be kind whenever possible. It is always possible.

Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.

All major religious traditions carry basically the same message, that is love, compassion and forgiveness the important thing is they should be part of our daily lives.

This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness.

                                                                The Dalai Lama

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Never look down to test the ground before taking your next step; only he who keeps his eye fixed on the far horizon will find the right road.

The pursuit of peace and progress cannot end in a few years in either victory or defeat. The pursuit of peace and progress, with its trials and its errors, its successes and its setbacks, can never be relaxed and never abandoned.

It is playing safe that we create a world of utmost insecurity.

If only I may grow: firmer, simpler, quieter, warmer.

God does not die on the day when we cease to believe in a personal deity, but we die on the day when our lives cease to be illumined by the steady radiance, renewed daily, of a wonder, the source of which is beyond all reason.
                                                   
                                                             Dag Hammerskjold

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Even the birds need to 'ground' sometimes

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   Teresa's Prayer by John Michael Talbot - why we use our whole self to give to others without expectations -            Click Here

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A little humor -



The boat is named "Bad Decision"


"The Grand Manipulation"

Peace,  Bill Lagerstrom